This next elimination arrives courtesy of
Patricia Highsmith who wrote the novel
The Price of Salt which was the basis for the movie
Carol which is the rare piece of queer fiction that isn't overwhelmingly sad. Not to mention she wrote it in 1952!
After much delay, Hayley loses her next track and let the silver lining be that "Molecules" lives another day! It's rare in rates for a song's average to be so close to my own score so well done everyone! For me, "Sleepover" is a step above most pop songs (in my head, a 6 is a good song with a 7 being a better than good song). The added half point comes from the deeply relatable queer #content of the song's lyrics. I mean "At least I got you in my head" describes 90% of my early crushes.
Hayley has commented a few times on the inspiration behind the song, telling
Billboard that "I tried to capture that intense feeling of yearning for someone, and how it just feels like you’re being swallowed by it." She added to
Buzzfeed that "This is a really exciting piece for me because I’m able to speak my truth. Throughout my music, I’m in pursuit of a deeper truth — this is my truth." I'd say she's overall successful though as a guy I'm not as familiar with the tropes of female sleepovers so I'll leave that to those of you with more experience in that field.
One of the coolest things about Hayley's young career has been her command of her visuals (
that album cover!) and that she's directed her music videos! The video for "Sleepover" is one of my faves in it's slow sensuality and that it stars two beautiful queer woman of color! There's such a HUGE difference between love scenes between two women that are directed by actual queer women and those directed by men. In the video, there's such a sense of romance and tension, you almost feel like you should look away since it's so intimate. Hayley commented on her
Tumblr before the release of the video explaining:
I’ve never truly believed that sexuality defines who you are. I do believe, though, that sexuality helps shape and build who you become. How you act, what you pursue, who you surround yourself with. This music video for “Sleepover” is not a concept or an idea for me. It is my life. It defines a part of who I am today. I grew up a dreamer and found comfort through a safe haven in my head. It’s where I was able to find self-love and feel validated. This music video validates those feelings for me, even if in those moments the girl I fell for was unavailable. I made this video to help validate those fantasies. To create a space for the lovers, dreamers and seekers. Falling in love can be a bittersweet feeling, especially if you know it’ll never be reciprocated. I think we can all relate to that. Thanks for always supporting me. Love you.
God I love the way she completely takes the "being gay doesn't define me" trope and shatters it to pieces. Let's repeat:
sexuality helps shape and build who you become. It's foolishness that some people want to act like being a member of a historically oppressed group means nothing to who they are. Hell, I'd argue even being straight shapes and builds who you become as it means you don't face those same barriers.
Now let's take it over to the voters before I get carried away again:
The Hot Rock this felt really inconsequential and was my least favorite of the Hayley songs. That's a good sign if this was my least favorite of the set since it wasn't BAD.
Pop3blow2 Perfect comedown track after What I Need.
Ufint It’s a mood.
Kalonite This is an earworm but not the good kind. Annoyingly catchy.
Posh Spears Always adored this one. A true dreamy bop.
Untitled the closest i came to feeling this song was this summer when checking out this beautiful english girl picking up watermelons with her boyfriend at the local Lidl shop. my life is sad
Slaybellz God I love this song so much. Very relatable and gets me in my feels every time.
Reboot This is such a soft, warm, relatable description of what it’s like to be a girl liking a girl.)
Music is Life Really enjoyed this mid-tempo. I can also see this growing on me. The lyrics are a highlight here. I love the sultriness of it, and honestly this is so relatable, it became a 10.
Yuuurei The first time I listened to this, I was instantly filled with memories of myself as a teenager, long before I knew I was a lesbian, having sleepovers with certain girl friends and how those were some of the only times I felt like myself and happy, but how I also felt weird and lonely. It's not the exact experience related in the track, but the connection makes it one of my faves anyway. The song itself is lovely and wistful and (fittingly) almost lullaby-like. A runner-up for my 11.