I was told yesterday that I'll have to leave my current job in two months. They told me they thought "something was missing", which I'm pretty sure was their way of saying "we don't think you've been social enough and attending enough staff days out". My anxiety + irrational fear of doing social things/being in large groups really plagued me in my current job so I'm not surprised, to be honest. I've always felt pretty out of place here, so it's probably for the best. In my third week I got told off for being "rude" and that's stayed with me ever since because I'd just had this amazing weekend in Glasgow that I couldn't stop thinking about and it felt like being punched in the gut and falling back to Earth. I think ever since I always felt like I had to walk on tiptoes and present myself as someone I wasn't. I just hope that my next job will be ... easier, in terms of my anxiety. I don't want to end up in another workplace with over 60 colleagues where I'm constantly expected to attend every after-work outing. I also wish being a bit introverted and shy and quiet isn't immediately seen as a weakness.