Alright you goons I've been awake since 5AM, I've been to the gym, I've done a full day at work, I've been on a run (with THESE KNEES
@constantino!!!), and now I'm sitting here doing this fucking elimination in my sweaty clothes instead of drawing a bath and queuing up the new Bald & The Beautiful to listen to, so let's get this shit over with!
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I've been so thoroughly bamboozled by the elimination order of Taylor's songs and distracted by the devilry of the thread that I kind of forgot that this was even still in, despite loving it. I'm actually surprised it has outlasted some other songs here. It's probably the most ballad
sounding of the ballads so I think I just assumed the majority of you would have squealed and reached for the skip button and the 2 on your keyboard. But here we are!
Tortured Poets is a sad album. End of write up. Just kidding, but no. A lot of the time any kind of real glimpse we get into Taylor's mental state is rough, but I don't think anything else on the album
sounds as sad as "How Did It End?". Sonically, melodically, it's the closest thing to a lament Taylor is probably ever done. Taylor prefers her choruses to kind of...
lift in her songs, even in the sad ones, but "How Did It End?"
sinks. I think that chorus melody is one of the finest moments on the album. It kind of reminds me of the middle-eight of "cowboy like me" where so much of the emotion and
story is in the melody that the lyrics almost don't even matter. In fact, Taylor agrees, as the chorus lyrics completely change in the second go around. There's just a taunting, furious, bitterness to how it sounds. Yeah, my life is a fucking circus, come and get your ticket. The resentment, the
shame.
Which I think are the two biggest emotions here. Break ups are hard, but break ups on the international stage when so much of your career and artistry is bound to your personal relationships must be so much harder. The... embarrassment of having to tell everyone the dream is over. The mechanically bland PR statement, the retroactive shame for all those love songs (He's NOT the Burton to
this Taylor!!!), and probably just pure rage at the fact that you have to go through this entire process when you just want to curl up and die. I do also like the inclusion of "the shops" in the lyrics too; I feel it deliberately places her in her disintegrating life in London in the immediate aftermath of Joe with a quintessentially British turn of phrase. A life in London which we know she loved, which was another thing she was losing, and mourns elsewhere on the album.
There's also that thread of just
hating the faux-concern from the mob, which ties to "But Daddy I Love Him" where she directly addresses the fact that sometimes, people just want to know the grisly innards of her business instead of actually respecting her privacy, which is probably something everyone at her level goes though. It's a fantastic song. I can even forgive the lyrics in the middle-eight being kind of maudlin because she delivers them so excellently, and the rest of the song is doing so much anyway. Again, the more fascinating thing about this song comes from how it touches on emotions Taylor rarely touches: shame, anger, her own wounded pride, which is made to sound like the biggest casualty here. But I won't be unpacking
that particular horror today.
"How Did It End?" was one of the few Tortured Poets songs that didn't have to share runtime with another song during the acoustic section of the Eras Tour. Additionally, it was another one of the those tracks she chucked out a professional recording for because she's a greedy beast! What a treat. Enjoy, although the higher key she puts it into to manage it live is a little eh.