I started going back to the gym on Monday last week. A mixture of being married (read: comfortable and less strict with eating habits), under lockdown and leading a mostly sedentary life - I’ve packed on the pounds and am now the heaviest I’ve ever been in my life.
I’ve always had a poor relationship with food and started suffering from an eating disorder in my junior year of high school. Eventually, I was diagnosed as a bulimic with anorexic tendencies.
Needless to say, this weight gain has been incredibly difficult on my mental health and has led my brain to entertain some pretty depressing thoughts.
So over the past couple of months, my desire to get back to the gym has been increasingly noticeable but the idea of working out in a gym during Covid and wearing a mask was completely unappetizing. I’ve come to find, it’s actually not that bad. Not ideal, but not the worst thing I could think of.
Anyway, as I said, I started working out again last week and whew, the rush of serotonin I’ve felt since then has been immeasurable. It literally was the key to what I was missing. I’ve got a long road ahead of me, but I’m excited. I downloaded the bodybuilder app and am following a really good program on there that lasts 12 weeks. I prefer fasted workouts, so I go to the gym between 5-530 every morning. Which also happens to be a very quiet time to go so it’s not jam-packed with people. Plus, they’ve got sanitizing stations everywhere and I find it to be rather a clean and enjoyable experience.
It’s tiring getting up that early, but I feel energized throughout the day and I sleep like a rock.
I am completely overwhelmed, however, by how weak my muscles have gotten. I’m capable of lifting about 1/3-1/2 of what I was prior to lockdown. Use it or lose it is right!
anyway, just wanted to get that off my chest.