I used to have similar ‘meh’ feelings when u was in my teens and early twenties. After I got HIV I started to read a lot about the HIV/AIDS crisis and the aftermath, as well as the years before it. I became proud of being a gay man then because I realized that ultimately we are all products of those who came before us in a way that heterosexuals just aren’t. In living memory, countless LGBT+ people just like us put their lives (reputations, careers, family and friends) on the line, and in a lot of cases gave their lives, to the cause of equality that they wouldn’t ever get to live and experience with us. I think to not feel pride is to not feel grateful and respectful to the work that they did, and frankly being ambivalent is a privilege that can be felt because of them. That’s just my hot take anyway.