Honestly every time I come to this thread it’s so beautiful and life affirming-especially reading about people going through similar experiences as me. I wanted to echo @He cause I promise from experience even having a wonderful steady partner does not do away with self doubt and self hating thoughts and behaviors. I know it’s the biggest gay cliche but we have to learn to love ourselves first. And like @londonrain said sometimes that means trusting that those around us loves s enough to hear our most vulnerable moments. Take it from me, don’t leave things unsaid between you and a friend!