Petit nain des Îles (2009-2020) is dead, long live Crisp X xx Spoiler: The extra backstory no one asked but it's Sunday and I'm bored I've been trying to get rid of it for years for many reasons, but I couldn't figure out a replacement until yesterday's eureka moment. It hasn't represented me for a very long time. I used to be addicted to Counter Strike Source in middle school and early high school. A former online friend I played that videogame with came up with it as an attempt to insult someone else nn. He was in a community that became my safe place and it was the best one I had been a part of until I joined this section of Popjustice (for real, not being hyperbolic for likes). I feel like a completely different person now, and want to move on from that time for good. It's way too long and has ended up cursing me over the last few years. I didn't mind being referred as "petit" only but it started to bother me once I stopped identifying as male. But then I haven't come out IRL and also don't feel safe putting "female" in my online profiles yet. Kind of my fault for not saying anything and the branding issue is on me then. Over time, I got weird undertones from "nain" and "Îles" which could be seen as disrespectful. Even if no one has ever called me out, I didn't feel comfortable with these words being parts of my username anymore. I tried out many other ones in the last 8 years on random places, like lyrics or song titles but either I wouldn't care about said band or artist afterwards, or it would then turn out they were... uh... highly problematic so I would come back to that one instead. A childhood flop cereal brand I often reminisce about, as it was my all time favorite, seems on brand and more timeless. And I feel like Sera could totally be a teleshopping host dd. I can't believe I'm writing this much about an username change. I need a new job.