I'm really sorry to hear about your situation @HolyWater. I've gone through phases in my relationship where things haven't felt right but I worked at it and things improved. And what got me through it was the feeling of I didn't want it to be over. Do you have that feeling? If you have that feeling then my advice would be for you to work at it. Talk to your partner about how you're feeling and see if there is a way forward.