To be honest, even though I joked about 1234 not winning before the rate even started, I was surprised to see it not make the Top 3. Maybe I jinxed it dddd.
Anyway, I originally had in mind this big elimination post for my 11 but that obviously went to shit so let me give an explanation here for why I Feel It All is the one song I deemed worthy of receiving my 11 when I love practically every song here.
I think it was in the Favorite Songs of All-Time rate where I decided to open up about myself more than I ever had on this forum before and revealed the personal struggles that led me to leave school and staying away from it for 2+ years. I probably touched upon this during that little confessional but I was very lost during that time and had no clue what the hell I wanted to do with my life. For a long time, I really didn't do much of anything until I gave into my parents' pressure to get a job. That job happened to be at a fast food establishment as a cashier and let me just tell you what you all already know. Customer service is a real pain in the ass a lot of the time. I always did my best to be positive and while I kept getting praise from the customers and my coworkers and bosses alike, after being there for an extended period of time, I grew very sick of the job. Don't get me wrong, I really enjoyed my co-workers (except for the main manager) and the repeat customers but deep down I grew more fed up with the job. It didn't help that despite being the favorite in the eyes of my boss, I was relegated to doing jobs such as picking up the cigarette butts out of the gravel around the restaurant. The desire to go back to school had been re-sparked within me long before then but that moment really made me realize that I was wasting my potential by staying at that job. That's not a dig at those who are in that line of work by choice and by necessity. I'm incredibly lucky to have had the privilege to return to school and not have to continue to work in one of the most challenging career paths that there is. I respect everyone who has ever had to work in customer service because it is not easy by any means. I realize that my rant about my old job may sound very salty but aside from the negatives, I hold a great deal of appreciation for that time in my life because without it I would not have learned how to regain my confidence in myself and my eyes might not have opened up to the fact that I was letting my self-doubt and fears. That said, I can't deny the fact that I grew more unenthused about the job the longer I stayed there. One of the other bright spots about the job was the playlist that was on constant rotation. Being the big music fan that I am, it was nice to have some access to music since we obviously weren't allowed to listen to it on our own during work hours. The playlist was full of great songs like Starlight by Taylor and In This Life by Delta Goodrem but the one that I always looked forward to hearing was none other than I Feel It All. I was a fan of Feist's before I took that job but in a way, that song became a source of comfort for me. Even if the day was going terribly, that song would always cheer me up and I grew to really miss it on the days it didn't happen to play out of the speakers. It's really thanks to that experience that I went from being a fan of Feist's to being a stan and once I realized how great she truly was, I dove through all her music again and fell in love with it all over again. Objectively speaking, Leslie has better songs than I Feel It All and songs that move me immensely in other ways but all the joy the song brought me during those trying times just can't me matched. As soon as I decided to take on this rate, I knew it was going to be my 11 and I never once had any second thoughts about my decision. I had to repay the song for all it has given me including the ability to find joy and pleasure in the little things once again which for a while I thought I wouldn't be able to do again. What better way of doing that than giving it my 11 in this rate?
@LE0Night I don't know how I could ever thank you for taking over this rate and finishing this tough job that I was unable to. I am truly in your debt. (As if I wasn't already due to all the wonderful music recs you have given me over the years.) Thank you to
@ohnostalgia and
@Mina for pushing me to open this rate and
@RainOnFire for all the patience and help. Lastly, I'd like to thank everyone who took part in this rate for sticking along through this long journey and not coming after me with pitchforks and torches for going M.I.A. for a while.
Having said all that, I don't think I'll ever forgive
@LE0Night for some of those infamous scores. A 5 for I Feel It All? Get some taste, you heathen!
I still love you, though.